Getting Out There

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Getting Out There

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I write to you today from this wooden plank about getting “out there”.

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The tide is out, and I feel caught between two worlds; the noise of traffic behind me and the tranquility of the ocean before me.

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I think about my visit to the hairdressers yesterday. While waiting, I’d picked up a magazine. Actress Rebecca Gibney was on the front cover. I’ve always admired her. What I didn’t know about, was her longstanding issues with self-doubt.

In the article she admitted that she doesn’t hide the fact that her hair and makeup are fake. Otherwise, she’s real, and loves her female friends as they’ve have helped her face her self-doubts.

It got me thinking about my upcoming author talk at my local library, and how the time has come to put myself “out there”. I’ve reached an important level in my publishing career… give it my all or get a job. And when a dear friend from my school days recently said to me, “You’ll have to put your high heels on and get yourself an $80,000 per year secretary job,” I almost choked on my Earl Grey tea!

As I sit here admiring the view, I marvel at how real the world is without my sunglasses. I broke them a week ago, sat on them as I stepped into my car. I’d never done this before. It was yet another nudge to get over myself, and get on with it.

It was an unveiling of sorts, to see the world as it really is.

I remember my first pair of sunnies. They were super trendy at the time… a white based frame speckled with bright colours — the designer, Jonathon Skeats. I wore them for many years. I think I replaced them simply to keep up with the fashion trends. Ray Bans came next, and I wore them until they wore out. These were then replaced with a cheap pair of black frames, with a touch of silver on the arms. While my sons laughed at these, I didn’t care, they did the job. Until I sat on them!

I’ve always had sensitive eyes and intuitively felt it was important to protect them. Though, I acknowledge now that for many years I wore them as a form of hiding. So, how long could I last without my sunnies, I wondered.

It’s been one week, and I’ve noticed a thing or two.

When I’m not looking through Polariod lenses the scene before me is real, the colours are not fake and unrealistic.

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I’m not hiding. People who pass me in the street when I’m on my walks stop to say hello, instead of rushing by, as though my eyes had sent them a greeting card. Young children especially, connect in honest and endearing ways… a girl sang while moving around me in a circle, not taking her eyes off mine. And a boy looked up to meet my gaze and said, ‘Hi and bye!’

It wasn’t until after these beautiful moments had passed than I questioned whether I had paid close enough attention. My eyes, though, were no longer shielded from the bright sunlight or people. I was and am being real.

This is not to say I won’t seek my next pair of sunglasses. Though, I’ll appreciate using them only when truly needed.

What about you… do you love your sunnies? Have you faced issues of self-doubt? Thank you for reading. I’d love for you to share your comments below. If you’d like to attend one of my author talks, you can find the info here.

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Blessings,

Leanda Michelle ♥


About Author

Leanda Michelle

Leanda Michelle is a writer and author, workshop creator and facilitator. An advocate and educator of alternative healing methods, Leanda has transformed her life from student to Master Teacher and entrepreneur, and believes all have the power within to heal and rewrite their story. Leanda is a disciplined yoga and Pilates fan, loves capturing photographic moments in nature, is confident in the kitchen and passionate about travelling to sacred places. When she’s not writing, Leanda loves to sing as though no one were listening. Sensitive and empathic, Leanda aspires to uplift and empower others to live a meaningful life. A loyal friend, she values integrity and the splendour of life. Presently, she is living the life of a gypsy while completing her next novel.

2 Comments

Karen Jacobsen

June 19, 2017at 9:28 am

Good Morning
I am renowned for loosing pairs of sunglasses, or perhaps leaving them at different places, maybe there’s a message right there… I’ve come to laugh if off… sometimes they even reappear… and I never lost them in the first place… and can end up having 3 pairs going at once… but I have never spend a lot of money on them so it’s not a drama.
As for “Self Doubt” I think the more people admit to struggling with a little Self Doubt the better it helps others, to realize we are human after all. I know, I can admit to certainly experiencing it, and as part of self learning, I continue to work on releasing that negative little monkey that tries to enter my brain, and convince it that it has no place here… you are not real… don’t waste my time…I have work I just “Must Get on With… It’s an on-going process… I want to win… and if I want to win I have to participate and play the game… not hide as you say… but be willing to show up and share the real me… Love and Blessings…

    Leanda Michelle

    June 19, 2017at 10:38 am

    I can see you ‘laughing’ at misplacing your sunglasses Karen! Indeed, we are all human and often take life way too seriously. Thanks so much for reading and sharing you and your life experiences. Love and hugs for you… may the magic unfold effortlessly for you this week ♥

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